*when will this shit end*

sumtimes i wonder should i luff at myself or cry at the predicament i am in, when my luck is good i get minimal results and be content wif tat, rest of the time my luck is like duno who's face, now its hit a beautiful full low, i am juz crammed so much tat i dnt even have time to think much, and i usualli live wif my probs afta "ponderation" now its juz so much, i dnt even want to dwell on wat my probs, they depress me, and i realise the true meanin to each his own recentli, especialli when its wif probs..,,,,,,

hmm i want to change the shit tats engulfin me, tats startin wif my assignments, followed by puttin my bloody work shit in order., my manager challenged me to prove her wrong, well big mistake i like challenges and i like winning them more, i'll make ya eat ur words and i want a fuckin apology, manager or not.... assignments are suddenli all up on me, well i am almost free, exams are in a few weeks than i get a long break from school, i want my life in control and tha onli way it will be if i control it,

*anotha constant pain*
And I hope you are the one
I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one
I die with
And I pray in you're the one
I build my home withI hope
I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that
I amIs there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart
And pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side I don't want to run away but I can't take it
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you
Then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms